Life as I used to enjoy it has recently come to an almost stand still, due to Year 12. Lately I haven't been able to spend hours writing blog posts, watching TV shows and playing games until 3am, or spend my time composing music as I love to do, simply because of the amount of school work, study and practice that has been required of me. I do push myself academically, and that doesn't improve the situation. Rather, it results in unreasonable expectations, and the feelings of failure when I don't succeed where I want to.
But, VTAC applications are in (except for that supplementary form that I forgot... ) and in exactly one month from tomorrow I will be sitting my last exam for school. Ever. Scary stuff to say the least.
Next weekend is my solo flute exam, which requires a 25 minute solo performance with pieces that meet a variety of criteria. Overall I do feel comfortable with my performance, however there is one piece I am studying that is AMus standard that is... well technically challenging to say the least. Highly atonal with rapid ascending passages in the upper register, combined with quaver triplets over crotchet triples in the piano, with... you get the idea. It's undoubtably the hardest piece I've ever studied on any instrument.
Year 12, and I'm guessing most senior high school years across the world, are demanding and very stressful. I am living on the notion that I only have one week of compulsory classes left ever, coffee and the promise of a fresh start once the whole thing has ended, regardless of the outcome.
So, it seems natural to compensate for the things that have been missing from my life this year, starting from the 16th of November, after my Music Performance- Solo written exam (which happens to be my brother's 13th birthday!)
1. Get my L's
It's something of a tradition for Australian young drivers to get their learners when they are 16, and to churn away at those hours so they can get their P's when they're 18. I've been 18 for over six months now, and I still don't have my L's. It's getting rather frustrating, because sometime last week my only valid form of ID went missing, and I still haven't found it.
2. Get a job.
I have been living off the support of my parents and centerlink for the last two years, with the excuse the I have been concentrating on my studies, and that all of my free time has been taken up with flute playing. That isn't going to be an excuse over the summer, or next year even if I am at university. I do like the idea of getting a job at a nice coffee shop or tea house, or even working at Lush.
3. Move house.
This is going to happen anyway, I know, because we have bought a house just a suburb away. Exciting, and requires some packing... =S but overall it should be a positive experience.
4. Buy a computer.
This will not happen for a while now, as I am terrible at saving money. I really want a computer, preferable a desk top so I can fill it up with new games. Laptops simply don't have the grunt for my tastes.
5. Eat healthier.
Year 12 takes its toll on you due to the lack of sleep, and I don't think my diet has been overly healthy this year. I simply haven't been eating enough lunch or breakfast, so I haven't been able to focus during the day at school.
6. Sleep in.
Goodness, I love my sleep, and I am looking forward to when I am able to lie in my coffin from 4am until 1pm without worrying that I am missing classes or not spending my time studying.
7. Read.
I have always read, but this year I have been somewhat restricted in what I read because I have had to read my Literature texts multiple times each. I am looking forward to being able to read without having to analyse the text, but simply enjoy it.
8. Have a clean bedroom.
This is so hard for me. I haven't sustained any attempt to clean and organise my room since year 2, and that's not an exaggeration. When I have the time...
Anyway that's all. I should SHOULD finish my Styles homework before my SAC on Tuesday. (SACs in term 4... Yes indeed. =/)
xxx Lilly
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
Day 16
Day 16- What's the most casual you've ever dressed?
Wow, firstly, I appologise for my silence of late. Year 12 has really gotten hectic and I really haven't had a spare moment to write something decent. Unitl this evening, that is, because earlier today I completed my last SAC for the term. (When I came back to end this post, that SAC now has to be re- sat by the class... Grrr it is STILL not over!!!!)
Anyway, I tend to dress with more of a minimilistic/ casual approach to Goth. I wear plain cotton shirts and skirts. Nothing too fancy or expensive. The most casual I have ever dressed would be when I went to school with my trench, skirt and long sleeved top on. It was freezing and I thought I would need some extra warmth, so I threw a plain black hoodie that I wore to bed in my school bag. I did need it, but I was reluctant to wear a hoodie out in public. Eventually I had to give in and wear the darn thing, but I felt so out of place.
Despite the fact that I generally have more of a low- key thing going on with minimalistic touches, I am very vain and won't leave the house in anything less that a proper skirt and a trench coat or shirt. Also, rarely is there ever a day where I don't wear some sort of makeup. Often it will just be a smudge of eyeliner and some mascara, because really, who can be bothered getting up at 6am to do makeup before a 8:15am Methods class. Not me, that's for sure.
Undoubtably, the day that I have those horrendous 8:15am classes (Tuesday and Friday) I tend to be at my most casual, only because I run out of time before I must drain my cup of tea and race out the door. In no way am I a morning person, and I have a tendancy to sacrifice makeup and hair time for more sleep.
xxx Lilly
Wow, firstly, I appologise for my silence of late. Year 12 has really gotten hectic and I really haven't had a spare moment to write something decent. Unitl this evening, that is, because earlier today I completed my last SAC for the term. (When I came back to end this post, that SAC now has to be re- sat by the class... Grrr it is STILL not over!!!!)
Anyway, I tend to dress with more of a minimilistic/ casual approach to Goth. I wear plain cotton shirts and skirts. Nothing too fancy or expensive. The most casual I have ever dressed would be when I went to school with my trench, skirt and long sleeved top on. It was freezing and I thought I would need some extra warmth, so I threw a plain black hoodie that I wore to bed in my school bag. I did need it, but I was reluctant to wear a hoodie out in public. Eventually I had to give in and wear the darn thing, but I felt so out of place.
Despite the fact that I generally have more of a low- key thing going on with minimalistic touches, I am very vain and won't leave the house in anything less that a proper skirt and a trench coat or shirt. Also, rarely is there ever a day where I don't wear some sort of makeup. Often it will just be a smudge of eyeliner and some mascara, because really, who can be bothered getting up at 6am to do makeup before a 8:15am Methods class. Not me, that's for sure.
Undoubtably, the day that I have those horrendous 8:15am classes (Tuesday and Friday) I tend to be at my most casual, only because I run out of time before I must drain my cup of tea and race out the door. In no way am I a morning person, and I have a tendancy to sacrifice makeup and hair time for more sleep.
xxx Lilly
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
The Theatre of the Nameless
If any of you have been following the YouTube or blog of the makeup company Illamasqua, you'll already be awear of this,but I was so inspired by it, I felt I had to share it with you.
This is the promotional video for Illamasqua's new makeup collection, inspired by the indulgent, illicit 1920's.
I personally have never tried an Illamasqua product, but I've heard so many reviews and raves about the product, but many artists swear by the products.
All of the promotional videos for their collections have a decidedly Gothic touch and this resonates to the colours in the collection.
I was inspired by this makeup that conjours images of sexy, yet empowered females and males performing on stage is a smoky vauderville bar or club, a la La Moulin Rouge, but with a hint of fantasy and the blurring of eras. (The nightclub, not the film, althought the costumes and makeup are very inspiring.)
This is a promotional picture from Makeup Forever's Limited Edition makeup collection, that was created as a result of a collaboration between the company's designer and the head of the Moulin Rogue, and I must say, this is hot!
xxx Lilly
This is the promotional video for Illamasqua's new makeup collection, inspired by the indulgent, illicit 1920's.
I personally have never tried an Illamasqua product, but I've heard so many reviews and raves about the product, but many artists swear by the products.
All of the promotional videos for their collections have a decidedly Gothic touch and this resonates to the colours in the collection.
I was inspired by this makeup that conjours images of sexy, yet empowered females and males performing on stage is a smoky vauderville bar or club, a la La Moulin Rouge, but with a hint of fantasy and the blurring of eras. (The nightclub, not the film, althought the costumes and makeup are very inspiring.)
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| http://www.chicprofile.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/Make-Up-For-Ever-fall-2010-Moulin-Rouge-makeup-collection-promo.jpg |
This is a promotional picture from Makeup Forever's Limited Edition makeup collection, that was created as a result of a collaboration between the company's designer and the head of the Moulin Rogue, and I must say, this is hot!
xxx Lilly
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Day 15
What is you favourite item in your wardrobe?
My favourite item of clothing would be my black, semi- Victorian style thigh length trench coat. Sadly it's missing a button or two at the moment, but I've had that dear jacket for nearly two years and it's served me well. It wasn't very expensive, high quality and isn't a great cut, but I love it none the less.
I don't wear the jacket in it's intended way, but that doesn't matter...
xxx Lilly
My favourite item of clothing would be my black, semi- Victorian style thigh length trench coat. Sadly it's missing a button or two at the moment, but I've had that dear jacket for nearly two years and it's served me well. It wasn't very expensive, high quality and isn't a great cut, but I love it none the less.
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| Me, my beautiful boyfriend pulling a face and my beautiful trench coat. New Years Eve 2010 |
xxx Lilly
Monday, August 29, 2011
Day 13 and 14
Sorry for my silence of late. I've ad trouble getting access to a laptop lately and am currently writing on a school one with six keys removed. Not exactly the most ideal circumstances to be writing in...
Day 13- What was your first band T shirt?
In all honesty, I bought my first band T shirt only a few weeks ago. It is a Christian Death T shirt in black, obviously, with their name and logo printed in silver on the front. I am a big fan of the band and in August last year the did a show in Melbourne wit Ikon and Voltaire as the supporting bands. As you could imagine, I was devestated that I missed the show because I was 17 at that time, but I did get to meet Voltaire in Peril (ironically, where I bought the T shirt) and got a hug and a signed CD so it wasn't al bad.
Day 14- What was your best and worst DIY experience?
Worst
I once had to hand sew a skirt that I wanted to wear to school tat day. It is one of my favourites and the one I'm wearing at the moment. Anyway, I went to the movies with my dad and my brother after school that day and a serparate part of the skirt was loose and trailing behind me the entire time!!! (Yesterday I simply hacked off the trail with a pair of scissors. Not very professional...)
Best
I had a delicious tiered lace skirt that tore around the tiers. Clearly the lace and material was too heavy for the upper layers to hold. Last year I reconstructed the skirt into a different skirt with a raised front section akin to something I saw on the Heavy Red website.
xxx Lilly
Day 13- What was your first band T shirt?
In all honesty, I bought my first band T shirt only a few weeks ago. It is a Christian Death T shirt in black, obviously, with their name and logo printed in silver on the front. I am a big fan of the band and in August last year the did a show in Melbourne wit Ikon and Voltaire as the supporting bands. As you could imagine, I was devestated that I missed the show because I was 17 at that time, but I did get to meet Voltaire in Peril (ironically, where I bought the T shirt) and got a hug and a signed CD so it wasn't al bad.
Day 14- What was your best and worst DIY experience?
Worst
I once had to hand sew a skirt that I wanted to wear to school tat day. It is one of my favourites and the one I'm wearing at the moment. Anyway, I went to the movies with my dad and my brother after school that day and a serparate part of the skirt was loose and trailing behind me the entire time!!! (Yesterday I simply hacked off the trail with a pair of scissors. Not very professional...)
Best
I had a delicious tiered lace skirt that tore around the tiers. Clearly the lace and material was too heavy for the upper layers to hold. Last year I reconstructed the skirt into a different skirt with a raised front section akin to something I saw on the Heavy Red website.
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| This was at a Rocky Horror party!!! |
xxx Lilly
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Day 12
Day 12- What is your Gothic inspiration?
This is a difficult thing to answer because I'm constantly getting inspired by different people, places, things and sounds that I experience each day.
Razor Candi's aesthetic is something that I would like to achieve in the future, but considering I'm a student and living with my family, I probably wouldn't get away with wearing a corset, ripped tights and a bra around the house. Her makeup is delicious, too.
Emilie Autumn, both musicially and stylistically, she really is one of the most inspirational people for me.
Generally I'm inspired bu individual pictures rather than people themselves so to show my inspiration in a blog post would be more than anyone could possibly do. My Tumblr, which is rarely updated these days, is probably where I pool most of the inspiring pictures I find, so if you're curious go and have a look.
xxx Lilly
This is a difficult thing to answer because I'm constantly getting inspired by different people, places, things and sounds that I experience each day.
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| http://www.fearnet.com/fearnetImages/imSw6v3Lux7R0aZMnbZJHfWQ==.jpg |
Generally I'm inspired bu individual pictures rather than people themselves so to show my inspiration in a blog post would be more than anyone could possibly do. My Tumblr, which is rarely updated these days, is probably where I pool most of the inspiring pictures I find, so if you're curious go and have a look.
xxx Lilly
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Day 10 and 11
Ok, so I'm a teeny pit pissed that Blogger deleted the entirity of an unpublished post... that I now have to rewrite from scratch...
Day 10 – What do you hate and love about the subculture?
Love- Gorgeous fashion, music and the overall aesthetic. It reflects a strong part of my taste and personality and has always resonated with me.
Hate- The 'elitist' attitude held by some Goths. It really annoys me to see them look down their noses on some people.
Day 11 – Is Goth a lifestyle for you?
Most indeed. I have dressed this way for the better part of the last ten years, used music that had a dark sound as a source of peace and relaxation and had a strong fondness for vampires, and Goth was a nice little name that I could put around this, and meet plenty of like minded people because of this. Even if the Goth subculture vanishes into nothingness, I will continue to do what I do proudly! =D
xxx Lilly
Day 10 – What do you hate and love about the subculture?
Love- Gorgeous fashion, music and the overall aesthetic. It reflects a strong part of my taste and personality and has always resonated with me.
Hate- The 'elitist' attitude held by some Goths. It really annoys me to see them look down their noses on some people.
Day 11 – Is Goth a lifestyle for you?
Most indeed. I have dressed this way for the better part of the last ten years, used music that had a dark sound as a source of peace and relaxation and had a strong fondness for vampires, and Goth was a nice little name that I could put around this, and meet plenty of like minded people because of this. Even if the Goth subculture vanishes into nothingness, I will continue to do what I do proudly! =D
xxx Lilly
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